 I Wish I Had a Korean Role Model While in Law School
Sometimes, I'll sit around and want a male role model in my life. My dad is sorta like that, but he was never around when I was a kid cause he was working all the time. I was an only child for 14 years, so no older brothers, and our family was alone in the USA, so there were no older relatives I could turn to.
I ain't complaining, cause my life has been good thus far. But sometimes I wish I had that older male figure in my life who could have stood up for me against bullies, talked to me about girls and sex, the SATs and going to college, and how to act on my first job, things like that. My dad couldn't and didn't do any of these things for me, he kinda expected me to figure it out myself.
Sometimes I miss that aspect about being in Korea. The male relationships are closer there. It doesn't have to even be an older relative. It can be a "sunbae", who can be an older alum or co worker, or even an older friend. These older dudes customarily take you under their wing, buy you some soju, give you good advice, things of this nature. I think that aspect of Korea I miss the most, and I don't get that here and sometimes I feel all alone.
It's a totally Korean thing, too. I could never have that kind of bond with an older dude that's not Korean, it's hard to explain.
I've been turning fobby of late, watching Korean dramas and listening to K-Pop again, and its kinda made me nostalgic about Korea. Sometimes I sit around wishing I had an older dude I could just go out to have some dinner with and pour out all my life's issues.
Oh well, felt kinda down today, so felt like ranting.
I don't know, does anyone else feel similarly?  | 
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